WARNING: THE FOLLOWING IS A SEXUALLY EXPLICIT AND SOMEWHAT VIOLENT ACCOUNT. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE UNDER 18, OR IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN READING ABOUT SEXUALLY EXPLICIT & VIOLENT SITUATIONS AND ACTIVITIES. ------------------------------------------------------------------

SLAVE TO A MAN HATER (a saga of a life of pain and degredation) by beatenboy

There I was, a 36-years-old guy, fairly successful, not bad looking but personally unfulfilled, with a string of failed relationships behind me and utterly hopeless that that would ever change. Thousands were spent on therapy only to conclude what I already innately knew: that I was a hope-to-die masochist. At this point, what difference did it make what incidents in my early development made me this way? My cravings for total subjugation at the hands and feet of a sadistic female were not going to be "resolved"; they were permanent due to some aberrant glitch in my psyche. I'd long given up confessing my proclivities to the women I'd date as they were unilaterally met with total revulsion. As hard as I tried, it was simply impossible to connect with a "normal" girl. I was just some deviant freak, condemned to a life of frustration and loneliness.

Tens of thousands of dollars poorer, money that went into the hands professional Dominants and cunning golddiggers for fleeting and empty thrills, I was pretty well jaded. 99.9% positive that the kind of woman I needed just does not exist. But it was that 0.1% of hope that lead me to placing just one more personal ad. I had placed many in the past . The responses I received were curiosity seekers or those women who were just really seeking a normal relationship with a kinder, more gentle man.

I had noticed that the local community throwaway paper personal section added a "specialties" category. "What the hell", I thought, it didn't cost anything and "who knows....?" The rules were simple: they put your 30 words or less ad in for 4 weeks, give you a voice mailbox and pass code to retrieve your responses.

I wrote the ad. No point in subtly, I reasoned, just lay it out. It went like this: "SEEKING GENUINELY CRUEL WOMAN WHO WOULD LOVE TO PHYSICALLY & MENTALLY ABUSE & DEGRADE A SINCERE, SUBMISSIVE, 36 YEAR-OLD SWM.

I placed the ad, recorded my voice introduction which basically confirmed what the written text said and just kind of put it in the back of my head. I had zero expectations that I would get any responses. I waited a couple of days until after the paper came out before I called to check my mailbox. The digitized female voice announced tersely "There are no new messages in your mailbox". I could even sense a note of scorn in that voice. Yeah, it seemed even a computer generated female representation was saying, "Get real, loser. No woman would want a demented weirdo like you!"

So it went for the next 2-1/2 weeks. Every couple of days I'd call in